I am going back to California on Sunday.
Not to visit.
Not for fun.
But because my grandma is losing her battle to cancer much faster than what the doctors thought. I am making my last trip out there before I can no longer see her again. It seems like God keeps tacking it on. When can I wave my white flag and surrender? I can't take anymore. It is most definitely a different feeling. You are able to prepare for this type of lose. There is no preparation possible for losing your spouse so unexpectedly.