Wednesday, February 10, 2010

Oh yeah

I am going back to California on Sunday.

Not to visit.

Not for fun.

But because my grandma is losing her battle to cancer much faster than what the doctors thought. I am making my last trip out there before I can no longer see her again. It seems like God keeps tacking it on. When can I wave my white flag and surrender? I can't take anymore. It is most definitely a different feeling. You are able to prepare for this type of lose. There is no preparation possible for losing your spouse so unexpectedly.


  1. Hey dude,

    I lost Michael and my grandma within 9 months of each other. I remember thinking that I had some clemency with having one loss, that god would keep me from another. Wishing you and your grandma strength.

    Love ya

  2. We've never met but I feel like I know you from the AWP, and your love with Michael reminds me of the love I share with my Warren. I lost my grandfather also 8 months after losing Warren; my dear friend from childhood passed away last week, and my aunt has just been diagnosed with stage 4 cancer. I know exactly what you mean. I've had my white flag up so high in the air that I'm absolutely boggled how no one has noticed it. I am so sorry you have to experience another loss so soon after losing the most precious man in the world to you. Where is the "get out jail free card"?! I wish you, if anything, peace for the upcoming days. And hugs.. because well, I always think we need hugs.