Monday, April 18, 2011


You know that movie Brothers.
With Jake Gyllenhaal, Natalie Portman, and Tobey Maguire.
The story of the husband that is deployed to Afghanistan
and the Marines think he was killed
so they notified his wife and children that he’s dead
and his low life brother
hangs around the wife and kids
doing things around the house
being a father figure for the kids
and a companion for the wife.
But the husband was only captured
and then found
then returned home
only to figure out that his wife and brother have started a maybe relationship.

 Michael got to meet Tobey when he was training for this particular role

Well I had a dream very similar to the plot line of this movie.

Michael’s death didn’t actually occur
but everyone thought it did.
He was deployed or something and then he disappeared
so they notified me that he died.
We had a funeral and everything.

Fast forward to two years after his death
and I’m in a relationship with a close friend of his.
I’m not sure which friend this was,
but I just know they were close,
practically brothers.
I was very much so in love
with both of them.

Out of no where,
Michael comes home.
And I am torn in between his best friend: my boyfriend
and my supposedly dead husband.

I couldn’t make a decision.
I wanted both of them.

Then I woke up.
I hadn’t dreamed of Michael in such a long time.
This was probably one of the worst ones yet.



  1. This is a rough one. I hate when I finally dream of Dan, and it's something that stirs up all the crappy emotions. You have a good dream coming your way!! Love you girl!!!

  2. I've definitely thought about this before. Like, Steve was superman, he couldn't have died. Obviously the military just needed him for a top secret mission or something.

  3. When Josh and I dated a few years ago, I had those dreams constantly. Tom would be so very angry with me and all I could say was, "They told me you were dead!" I haven't had one of those in a long time and I think it's because I have come to some kind of peace with the situation. I'm not sure how I got to this point, but I'm here and happy with the way things are going.
    Allison, you are an amazing person and one day I hope you can open your heart again because you deserve to be loved and have so much love to give.