Tuesday, February 22, 2011

world of hurt

Yesterday, my family and I received horrible news. 
My brother's best friend, the love of his life, took his life.
I would never wish this life on anyone, especially any of my family members. 

My brother is absolutely heart broken and distraught. 
We were all taken by surprise.
And it's really hard to even believe. 

My brother's boyfriend was like a little brother to me. 
I loved him so much. 
He made my brother happy. 

We will never understand why this happened. 
But it is just a reminder that life is so short 
and so precious 
and to tell those who matter most how much you love them.

 You will always be loved and missed
<3 JLB <3

Due to the sensitive nature of the situation, please only send prayers and words of encouragement. We are all hurting very much.


  1. I am so sorry for your loss, you and your family will be in my prayers.

  2. I have followed you for awhile but never left a comment. I usually dont feel like I have the right words to leave.
    I just wanted to let you and your family know that I am very sorry for your loss. You will all be in my thoughts.

  3. I am so sorry sweetie! I will pray for you all.

  4. I've followed you secretly for a while now. I am so, so sorry about the loss of this young man. Warm thoughts and prayers are sent.

  5. I am so sorry for your loss. :( If you need any help finding resources on suicide/depression for helping your family cope please let me know.

  6. :( Love you! Nothing but love coming your way from the Toner's. I am so sad for your brother.

  7. I'm so sorry for your loss! Your family is in my thoughts.

  8. I am so sorry for your loss. Your family and his family will both be in my prayers.

  9. I am so sorry for your loss :( You are all in my prayers!

  10. Again Allie, I'm so sorry for your family's loss. You all will be in my thoughts and prayers! Sending ya'll tons of love, and the biggest of hugs.

  11. oh wow that is so horrible. I can imagine what your brother is going through. Suicide is such a horrible thing and the remaining people wonder what/if they could have done anything to prevent it. My uncle commited suicide a few years ago and his teenage daughter found him.

  12. This is my first time stopping by your blog and I've been so touched to read about your story. I cannot imagine the challenges and pain you've faced over the past few years with losing your husband - especially after surviving two deployments. I think you are a remarkable woman for getting out of bed each morning and continuing to carry on and honoring the love you had for your husband.

    I'm also so sorry to hear about your brother's loss. I recently had a close friend take their own life and it's such a difficult thing to try and understand. The loss seems amplified because you cannot understand why they would do it.

    Hoping you and your brother find peace in this difficult time!